INTRO
SNAPSHOT
CALLING OWLS
TO OUR SONS, 1982
THE ABORTION PALACE
MY SHIP
WAITING ON LARAMIE CREEK
IMPATIENS CAPENSIS
THE ADVANTAGE OF INTELLIGENCE
FROM THE TALE OF PETER MINK
THE ODYSSEY OF GLOOMY GUS
THE HUMAN CONDITION IS NOT
TED
OLD MAN TO HIMSELF
OLD DOMINION
AFTER YOU LANGLADE
SPRING PEEPERS
THE BRANDY LINE (ABOUT A FAVORITE GOAT)
GROWING UP, TWO AMERICAS
WHEN I WAS FIFTEEN
A TRUE DOCTOR
ANNIVERSARY 1984
HILLS
LITTLE RIVER
THE LESSON
TREES OF NEW JERSEY
BEYOND NORTH MOUNTAIN
OLD RIDER
MAKE REVOLUTION
MUSIC AT THE JACKSON
MEMORY
TO BETTY, 1982
DREAM OF CHARLES DE LANGLADE
THE SCRAPER
YOU CALL ME FOLLY MILLS
BY WINNEBAGO'S SHORE
ALONG 693
DEATH OF WILBUR
I DIDN'T KNOW YOU THEN
©Poems of R.F.Mueller- Other Times, Other Thoughts

CHICAGO AND NORTHWESTERN
R.F. Mueller


On that December day of '45 she became part of my life,
Of that vision unbelievably recoiling to
The same wide streets, the wire-fenced fields,
The trees spooling past the 400's northward drive,
The rhythmic clack of steel in oil
Shucking off the foreign days and nights.
My uniform was the opening
To her elegant brunet's fur-coated style,
The introduction to her smile,
There in the gently swaying blue-green plush,
With faintest smoke-of-diesel smell, and beyond
The outward dash of increasingly familiar miles
Toward the station stop
Where, helplessly, I saw her step into my past.

 

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This incident was an example of my faintheartedness around desirable women, faintheartedness and insecurity that resulted from self-perception as an uneducated rube. I had of course gained some bravado from my experience in Europe, but it was inadequate in the old familiar American social setting that rushed back on me in this instance.