INTRO
WHEN I WAS FIFTEEN
ALONG 693
THE ABORTION PALACE
GROWING UP, TWO AMERICAS
ANNIVERSARY 1984
TO BETTY, 1982
BEYOND NORTH MOUNTAIN
THE BRANDY LINE (ABOUT A FAVORITE GOAT)
DREAM OF CHARLES DE LANGLADE
YOU CALL ME FOLLY MILLS
THE ODYSSEY OF GLOOMY GUS
HILLS
IMPATIENS CAPENSIS
THE ADVANTAGE OF INTELLIGENCE
I DIDN'T KNOW YOU THEN
AFTER YOU LANGLADE
WAITING ON LARAMIE CREEK
THE LESSON
LITTLE RIVER
MEMORY
MUSIC AT THE JACKSON
THE HUMAN CONDITION IS NOT
OLD DOMINION
OLD MAN TO HIMSELF
OLD RIDER
CALLING OWLS
FROM THE TALE OF PETER MINK
MAKE REVOLUTION
THE SCRAPER
MY SHIP
SNAPSHOT
TO OUR SONS, 1982
SPRING PEEPERS
TED
TREES OF NEW JERSEY
A TRUE DOCTOR
DEATH OF WILBUR
BY WINNEBAGO'S SHORE
©Poems of R.F.Mueller- Other Times, Other Thoughts

CHICAGO AND NORTHWESTERN
R.F. Mueller


On that December day of '45 she became part of my life,
Of that vision unbelievably recoiling to
The same wide streets, the wire-fenced fields,
The trees spooling past the 400's northward drive,
The rhythmic clack of steel in oil
Shucking off the foreign days and nights.
My uniform was the opening
To her elegant brunet's fur-coated style,
The introduction to her smile,
There in the gently swaying blue-green plush,
With faintest smoke-of-diesel smell, and beyond
The outward dash of increasingly familiar miles
Toward the station stop
Where, helplessly, I saw her step into my past.

 

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This incident was an example of my faintheartedness around desirable women, faintheartedness and insecurity that resulted from self-perception as an uneducated rube. I had of course gained some bravado from my experience in Europe, but it was inadequate in the old familiar American social setting that rushed back on me in this instance.